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A NEw Day Is ApprOaching....

So today is April 4th, 2007....and I'm still trying to figure out why my life still feels like h-e-double hockey sticks. I've been working hard, dividing my time amongst everyone and everything, but I'm sooo tired of it. Do you know I slept for 8hrs yesterday...the first time I've done that since February???? I felt so guilty about it, too when I woke up because now I have all these things to complete in a small time span. I'm hating "this" life right now...

They TELL me I have about a week left, and I TELL them where they can stick their week; I'm taking a bite out of life and I'm not letting go until it gives me what I've EARNED!!!

 

God, please help me to gain my sanity back, wherever it ran off to....

Tokyo Wankei

That's the title of the Japanese Drama I'm watching right now. It's kinda strange, but I find myself really wanting to be in a dating relationship right now. Most people who know me who say that I'm pretty self-sufficient, and I'm usually the person people come to when they have problems. Take for instance Tokyo Wankei, where the main actress is the eldest in her family and a successful businesswoman - all seems well in her life, but behind closed doors, she really wanted to have the experience of being in love with someone. Now I'm not saying that I feel "incomplete" without having a person like that in my life, it's just that, for once, it would be nice if I was the person in love with someone, instead of being the 'sister' type to my male friends...well, I'm done ranting....

 

....for now:)

Free at last!......well, sorta...

So today I woke up at around 6:30am; sounds early, right? Well, if you have five sheets of Japanese homework to do, a Japanese dialogue to memorize, and a grammar quiz to study for, and a shower to take before 8:50am, that's called oversleeping:) I prayed that God would help me get my work done, and after settling down here in my room a minute ago, I realized that I got it all done in time (thank you God!). So now, I'm listening to "Sunday Morning" by Maroon Five, and gazing out at the beautiful, nearly clear sky. I got my Japanese test back from Friday, and I got an 86% -- 8% better than the last test:) I'm finally starting to gain a better grasp of writing coherent Japanese sentences. Even my quizzes are all 100% (except for the kanji quizzes, which I keep failing), so it's becoming more apparent what areas I'm growing in and which I need to improve. 

My teacher is going to America for two weeks, and he said that he'll bring me some macaroni and cheese back! Boy, do I miss good food...not to say sushi isn't good, it's just that HOT food tastes better (j/k).  I have to figure out something with my financial situation because finacial aid took away a lot of my aid, so now I don't have any money.  I plan to take out a loan with UMich next week, but that's a whole week without money, living off the food I have, which isn't that much.  I know something will work out, though, because I didn't get here with all the financial difficulties I had on the way, just to not have any money during my stay.  I'm going to pick up my alien registration card today, so I can finally open a bank account here in Japan.  My hope is that I can open a savings account and put my extra loan money there to use when I need it. 

Well, I need to go study, so that's it for today.  Oh yeah, the Japanese word for the day is: takai, which means expensive (ex. Sore-wa totemo takai desu-ne in English means That is very expensive).

Until next time,

Jaamata-ne

 

Let's have a little fun...

So, today's blog will be short. However, this is a fun exercise, so enjoy!

Leave your name and

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
4. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
5. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
6. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
7. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.
Ubtil next time...

Jaamata-ne or in English, see you later!

Japanese Studies -- where your best hasn't been good enough since the beginning of syntax

Alrightie, so I know it's been a bit over a week since I've left a post; this week, I should be more frequent because I'm finished with all my homework for the week (isn't that cool?). Right now, I'm just proofreading over all of it with my handy-dany study tools:) Mr. Pencil Has become my best friend here. You can't imagine how many times I erase on my papers...my erasers dull out after a week!

Anyways, I'm listening to "Thug mansion" by Tupac feat. Nas. This song always reminds me of being in my dorm room in Alice Lloyd (U of M Residence Hall), reflecting on where I'll end up in ten years or so.  Even though people usually have great things to say about their exploration overseas, it's hard for me to adjust.  I miss being in America, and I know I might say that a lot, but it's something about being away from what you know that causes one to cling to what they have left. Right now, I'm considering returning back to America after December. Now don't get me wrong, the environment and a lot of the people I've met are really great -- by having those things, it helps me to get through this first semester here. It's just that I can't picture myself being subject to the rules and culture of this society -- it's great to study and even experience for a while, but for me, I don't see why I should want to live here. 

The hard part about all of this is what will I ultimately decide? If I return to America, I would experience reverse culture shock while I'm starting my new classes (which might not be the best idea). It would also be hard to build relationships with friends I already have, just because after time, we would all be somewhat different and would need to learn how to accept each other with those differences. Additionally, getting a place to live would be challenging, since I would need to live in the dorms or get an apt. But if I stay....well, let's just say that if I still felt the way I feel right now by January, I wouldn't be having a good time. When I say Japanese classes are intense, that's what I mean.  Yes, I completed all of my homework for the week, but I still need to study each day just to keep up with the class. And the hard thing about things is my Japanese writing skills have improved drastically, but my speaking skills are still mediocre. In public, it's easy to stick to the same phrases (so I don't look stupid!), but not practicing new sentence patterns have caused me to be behind in class in speaking skills.

But in other news, this weekend, I'll be staying in Nagoya with Cass and a woman named Stacii, who is attending church services in Nagoya with me.  We're going to do Karaoke (Yay! Singing!), and Stacii will do my nails and eyebrows (thank you God!).  I can't wait because I'm hoping that this experience can help me to be more comfortable with using Japanese in public. Well, it's time to go, but before I leave, here's the Japanese word of the day: aisu which means to love in English (ex. Watashi-wa anata-ni aishite imasu = I love you!)

Until next time...

Stacey

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